Thursday, 30 December 2010

10w2d Anxious

It is a long slow wait until my next ultrasound in mid-January. I have ordered a doppler, but it seems to be making its way to my home on foot, and is not due here for another week. Although the queasiness, fatigue, back-pain, and swollen breasts continue, it is not the concrete proof that I would like that everything is progressing well with this pregnancy.

My husband, on the other side, seems to have accepted the fact that our family will welcome another member in August next year. He is busy reading "First Time Parent" and making a long list of all the tasks that must be completed before then. He wants to start painting the nursery and buying furniture. The other day he started asking me questions like if we should alternate bottle with breast at night to allow me to get more sleep, and if we should use a crib in the nursery rather than a co-sleeper in our bedroom.

I responded to his thoughtful questions by bursting into tears. For me, it is all I can do to get through the next two weeks until the Week 12 scan. For him, he figures I've got the pregnancy handled, and his job starts in August. I am thinking fetus, and he is thinking newborn. I am so thankful that he realises that he is an equal partner in the upbringing of our child, but sometimes his go-go attitude is a little intimidating, especially when I can barely muster the energy to get off the couch.

7 comments:

  1. I can understand how anxious you must be for the next scan. There is no end to the worries....if only we could all act like the lucky feriles who post their positive HPT on facebook!
    The scan will be perfect...i promise :)

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  2. Oh sweetie, waits between scans can feel like an eternity. I'm so hoping the time passes quickly for you...and that your doppler arrives at your doorstep tomorrow :)

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  3. I am still waiting on my first ultrasound and my husband and I are in the exact same place as you guys. I worry when I feel nothing. I'm anxious when I feel something that it's not a good something. He's talking about a larger car and getting a convertible sofa since the guest room will become the baby's room.

    I hope their confidence rubs off on us so we can have some peace.

    It is sweet that your hubby is reading First Time Parent voluntarily. You've got a good one, lady.

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  4. I know what you mean. Christmas and New Year have been full of my husband talking about next year and how great it will be having Sparky and he's making all sorts of plans. All I can think when he makes these comments is that at this point in the pregnancy with Blobby things were even more perfect than this time - no bleeding, etc. And Blobby wasn't here with us this year. August just seems so *impossibly* far away!

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  5. I completely understand how you feel. My husband is kind of cautious about everything too, so we're both just waiting this out. It's amazing to me that I might actually give birth to a real live baby. Hang in there and remember that positive energy is good for the baby. :)

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  6. I haven't been in your position but know I would be a wreck. Remember you are amazing and we are all rooting for you!

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  7. My husband is exactly the same. He has basically believed this is a perfectly healthy pregnancy that will produce a perfectly healthy baby in May from the very first beta. Me? I counted down every week to each ultrasound. I couldn't sleep before the 12 week scan and the nuchal fold measurement. Then I freaked about not feeling movement. Now I'm in countdown to hit 24 weeks and viability.

    My experience of my pregnancy is clearly very different from Q.'s. But I think IF touches us differently.

    I'll sit with you while you wait. If it is any consolation, once you hit twelve weeks the time starts to absolutely FLY. Everyone told me that, and I didn't believe them, but my goodness it is true!
    xxx
    T.

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